Once is my memories, there is a guy that is always being comfort in my heart, there is my very first crush 'Derek'. He just came back from Australia recently for a short trip here just to see all his friends here in singapore. I am so sad to see him here in singapore, i was always the last ppl to know about it.
when i was shopping in orchard with bf, not far from where i am standing from, i saw a guy that looked liked him. I had no gut to call him becos my bf is just beside. when we are walking towards him, i realised that my imgination is true, he is there staring at the crytal swam that i liked before.
He turned around and saw me, i dun really know why my heart is beating so fast and my whole face including my ears are all red just like a red apple. Lucky was that my bf is not around at that time becos he is in the toliet. His expression, face, figure is just like before, not much difference from where last broke up. I dun why my heart is beating so fast, at the time, my bf just came out from the toliet, i dun really know what to do next. I introduce derek to my bf, during the time, my whole mind is totally empty, i told derek that wilfred is my best friend. Wilfred is very angry and reply me that he is going out to meet up with his buddies. During that time, i was totally lost, i dun know what to do, whether to go with wilfred or go out with derek. Lastly, i had made up my mind to go out with derek becos i really miss him as my friend.
Derek is my very first crush, i very miss the memories that we favourish in our secondary school-life, i still remember the times that we had exchanges love letters in our textbooks. and the times we had spent in the 5 days perfect's camp. Unfortunately is that, he is not a singaporean after he had graduated from secondary, his whole family had decided to immignant back to Australia, becos his father had been posted to Australia branch to work as a branch manager. He had no choice but to follow, that is why we broke off our almost 2 years of lovely relationship.
During the times that we are in orchard road, we had spent a lot of times together chatting the about the memories that fourish before. We had decided to call up all our friends out for a small gathering and at the same time celebrating his return.
On the saturday evening, 26 June 2004 6.30pm at Merchant Court Hotel Restaurant, is our last time that we were able to meet up. Fortunately is that all our friends is able to meet. We had a very wonderful times together, eating, drinking beers, chatting, and telling jokes. During that time, it is just like the times had just winded back the clock to where we are in secondary school-life where all of us are very innocent. I really miss the times that we are together before. It had being 7 years not seeing them already, I hardly see them becos during that time i am trying very hard to ignore and forget derek totally. I want derek to forget me totally. I was once a talkative ppl, i always the one that is telling jokes and making ppl laugh, but on the saturday evening, i was so quiet, i hardly talk just sitting there quietly listening to all of them talking. After the dinner, i had decided to go home, derek voluntary to send me home. He decided to send me by cab but i hesitate to walk home. He accompany me without any doubt, we had being walking nearly about 2 hours then i am able to reach home. We hardly talk just quietly walking, in my mind i really hope that this will continue walking without stopping, never ending road. But when i was about reach my doorstep, he handed me a gift and letter, he wanted me to open it up, when i open up the gift. It was the crystal swam that he had being staring at during the time that we are first meet up in orchard road. I was so touch, he gave me a warm hug and i cry on his chest for a while.... after a while, he left without saying good bye to me, just quietly walking away....
During the time, i was quite confused, i opened up the letter... it mentioned that he is going back to Australia, the flight that is early in the morning, and he didnt want to see me sending him off. He is going back to Australia and start planning to get married soon. He is back here in singapore just i see how i am doing now, becos of the little promise that we had agreed upon during our last broke off at the airport. In the letter, he had also mentioned about the relationship with wilfred, he know that i had lied to him, he know the wilfred is my bf. He want me to fourish the relationship with wilfred, he believe that wilfred will give me happiness and not saddness... He want me to be happy for him and wish him all the best for his wedding... After his left, I tired to call him, but his phone was always off. But when i was about to sms to him, i receive a sms from him ~ He want me to forget about him....
I was so sad and confused, i dun really know what i am thinking right now.... i keep telling myself i cant continued this way, i had been attached and i really love wilfred very much, i cant hurt him becos i love him..... i call him to explain to him but he is still angry with him till the situation in orchard road... without any doubt, i take a cab to his place and hope that that he will forgive me. when i was down on his place, i call him and cry.... when he is about to open the door, i hug him so hardly that he is not able to breathe... he is the type of person that is very considerate with the type of clothes that he is wearing. but that time, he came down with just only his pants only and topless... he quickly went back to his room and get a pair of jacket and drove me to the paris ris beach... during that time i had being crying nor stopping and he had being giving me tissues.. we had being spending the whole day at the beach and i just quietly laying on his chest without talking to me... When i was about to say a word, he kiss me and say to me that he understand... he know that derek is my crush and he understand the whole picture on what i am feeling right now.... I was so touch and at the same time i am very happy that he is able to forgive me for what the stupid things that i had done to him.... i kiss and say i love him...
And tell him that the whole story that i and derek had encountered before...A Friend Is One of the Best Things in Life!!
Though we don't see each other very much
nor do we write to each other very much
nor do we phone each other very much
I always know that, at any time
I could call, write or see you
and everything would be exactly the same
You would understand everything I am saying
and everything that I am thinking
Our friendship does not depend on being together
It is deeper than that
Our closeness is something inside of us that is always there
ready to be shared with each other whenever the need arises
It is such a comfortable and warm feeling to know that
we have such a lifetime friendship
-Poem by Susan Polis Schutz
see what charles is doing when all the 3E05 girls are taking photos... 
this is another team project group photo 
hi... this is my project team mates... nice right 
Girls photos before the POT presentation 
What are these three doing... haha they are filming hindu movie... 
This two are our 3E05 class charlie angels!! haha 
3E05 girls digging their nose while taking photos 
3E05 group photo 
3E05 group photo ~ 2004 BIT FYP showcase 