I had just lost a close friend, Anna Wong.. She had passed away infront of me today afternoon..
I wish it was just a dream, but I and Janice had face the real scene of seeing her falling down from her cond.. I received her call, she was crying when we were on the phone, I can felt something strange about her.. After held out the phone with her, I quickly called my best friend Janice to accompany me to her place.. When we reached there, she was sitting at the bedroom's window with her legs outside.. I quickly called her, the last words that we heard from her was "GoodBye my friends, I'm gald to have you all as my friends, Please dun cry for me, I will be fine in another world, and GoodBye.." After saying this phrases of words, she push herself out of the window and landed infront of us.. We just blindly seeing her fell down without saying a word to her.. Anna, please dun died.. Why do you left us without an explaination.. I miss you so much..
I knew she was actively playing with investments shares.. She is banker, and got so close with the stock-broker, I hardly got time to hang out with her.. These few months, I felt something strange about her, she suddenly got very rich, she treated us dinner and bought us expensive presents.. She dressed up very goregous and spend money like nobody business, she even bought a cond for herself, it's so strange, where do she gets the money from.. I got annoyed, I tired to try out. Somehow I felt worry about her, I lost contact of her, I tried to call her, but her phone can't get through.. I called her workplace, her colleagues said she had resigned few days ago. I tried to going to her cond, she always not around, her neighbour said that she had not been around for days.. I really had lost contact of her totally, I am getting really worried.. I tried to call her mother, her mother told me that she had been coming back home for days, and she was also very worried..
Only today, I had finally received her call.. BUT......................
She wrote us a letter, she hold on to the letter while she fell off.. She was encountering depression of facing herself bankrupt, she lost everything in just a few seconds.. I even hire a lawyer for her will, but now she is bankrupt, she lost everything including her wealth written in her will.. The cond she bought had mortgaged to the bank, she had nothing.. I got to know this only today.. What a friend am I? I feel so sorry to nag at you always on the phone.. If I had noticed it earlier, you will not have left us..
Why everyone around me is leaving me, I suddenly feel so lonely.. First is my godmother and now is my close friend... Just few months, I lost two every close buddies..
I miss you Anna.. I really miss you... Miss you forever....
I am so so exhausted today, I slept only 4 hrs yesterday night.. These few weeks, I won't have a good sleep, I had being thinking of something when sleeping.. I'm so tired tired.. I'm so sleepy after coming back from lunch, I even fall asleep at one of lady toilet cubicle today afternoon for about 10 minutes.. I went MIA for minutes, I'm wondering whether anyone had noticed me that I went missing at work this afternoon..
Have anyone dropped by to the guy toilet before? I swear, I went into the guy toilet before (twice in a month).. I accidentally went in before noticing it is a guy toilet.. Lucky at that point of time, there is no guy around.. Having stomach pain, I just went in urgently without looking around, locked myself in the cubicle doing my business.. After few minutes, I felt fishy, I heard noise of guys gossip in the toilet, OMG I am in the guy toilet. There is no way I can escape, I am being kept in the toilet full of guys, if I get out, all the guys were looked at me very strange or even do dirty things to me.. Hahaa, I dun dare to flush the water, I dun dare to say a word, scared to be noticed, and there is no toilet paper paper around, SHIT.. OMG, I am being locked in the guy toilet for about 30 minutes, lucky my ex-guy colleague was there to rescue me out after receiving my sms.. It's really fun to be kept in the guy toilet, it's fun to listen to guys gossip, they are good in grapevine too, it's so amazing to heard it..
This incident happened last year.. Only few of my close friends knew it, they laughed and laughed at me non-stop when I told them about that incident.. It's so embarrassing..
My dream is to be a successful lady boss one day, opening up a small florist shop.. The shop doesn't have to be very big, just a small business will do, but it has to be very refined and romantic.. Everywhere will be placed with beautiful lovely flowers; when customers come in the shop, they will smell the scent of beautiful flowers.. That feelings will be great.. I will make the shop very cozy, so to get along well with my all customers..
Why choose florist shop as my aim.. My favourite gift(s) I wish to recieve are not only diamonds, but of cos flowers.. I love receiving flowers, they brighten up my days.. I love to look at beautiful things, and these flowers are so lovely and colourful, these were be my greatest gifts from the god..
I wish to have a land with full of lavender, like my aunt who is staying in Australia. She owned a land of lavender, and she had a production factory there.. I will brought back alot of lavender stuffs home whenever I visited her, I am really a lavender lover.. I had the whole range of lavender bathroom products at home, from shower gel to feet scrub.. Everything in the toilet are made of lavender, and of cos in my room.. That describe why I love purple colour, and purple represent romance, and I believe myself as a fully miss prefect and romantic girl..
Helping my aunt's florist shop for 2 days, I had finally found my love lure of setting a shop of my own.. The temptation of being a boss one day.. This ideal had came across, when I was serving a guy customer this late evening.. He came to the florist shop to buy a big bouquet of 100 red roses so just to propose to his girlfriend here in the shop.. I was very touched by his geatures and and way he treat his girlfriend. He told me that the girl he was about to propose to is his only girl in his life, a long relationship of 8 years.. Wow, Finally he had this brave courage to say the 4 words to her.. This is the place where their love lure began, so he decided to choose this place to propose his love to his girlfriend...
When I was about to finish wrapping the flowers, his girlfriend came in the shop.. He was so lost at that point of time, I can see from his eyes that he was very nervous, but when I hand over the bouquet of flowers to him, he quickly knelt down in-front of his girlfriend and say "Will you marry me.." And his girlfriend cried and say "I do". I am very very happy for them, and I had agreed to be their wedding planner cum helping up in their wedding flower arrangement..
After going through alot of my friends/clients wedding, I am quite tired of getting married.. I am really lost now, tired of myself of being alone for so long, no one to love.. It's fine to be single, I will have my own freedom don't have to report, but I really hope my turn will come soon.. I need a shoulder to hold on.. I need love.. A guy that will sweep my feets off, give me his entrust and love.. When will it come? Cupid where are u? Please help me....
Ok... I'm over him, I will try to stop showing up at places where he'll be in, it will be easier for me to forget about him this way.. I always stop by at Raffles Place just to see whether I got a chance to see him.. But months had passed, we had not being meeting each other.. My dream had ended.. Actually, I was thinking.. Maybe I should find another ideal boyfriend, and be in a real romantic relationship.. Romance doesn't just happen; its a state of mind, its an attitude of love, tenderness & preference that need to be daily reinforce. Time to nurture a relationship...
Wish me all the best..
To my dearest Tortoise Eva, Thanks for being by my side always, thanks for your company, nice to have u as my friend, nice to have a lovely companion like u, nice shopping and talking to you.. Once again, thank u so much.. Muacksss!
THANK U.. cya soon
Have been blogging since May 2004. I've been keeping this blog going for almost 3 years.
I've been hooked on to blogging ever since. I could go on and on, getting so wordy and emotional that will make people cry through my entries, Hahaha.. My writing style changes as I goes by.
On a personal level, why I keep this blog pretty much alive is because I want to record down the things I've gone through. Be it my boring daily routine life. Or the little interesting incidents that spice up my life. The weird thoughts that's been into my brain. The mental roller-coaster rides I went through. The inner thought that occupies my mind. The events and outings I've attended. The everyday happening in my life. I want to remember the moments. Even if one day, I may have lost my memories, I could read back and try to recall what happen in my life..
Even now, sometimes I do like to read back on those archives to remind myself of what I did and how I felt at that point of time. I may feel silly when I read back on my archives however they're a part of me. This blog also helps me connect with friends. We may be too busy or too occupied in our own lifes to meet up on regular basis. However we could still keep each other inform about our own lives. It helps to maintain friendships I think. Not forgetting people poking in to kaypoh around. Find out what I've been doing recently or whatever.
This is my life. I live the way I like it to be. I have my own set of thinking, own life that I lead. I let you into my life by blogging doesn't mean you've to go around and start telling people what I've done or how I feel. I just wrote my life as how it is going..
To be continued....
I went to watch a movie "The Messenger", and went shopping with Kaze yesterday after work.. We went to my favourite shopping playground "Far East Level 1", heehee guess what, I bought alot of stuffs back.. One 3/4 jeans, two black trendy T-shirts, and one sunglasses.. I spent almost $100 just 2 hours of shopping.. Wow, U can called me a "Shopping Queen"..
It's really fun to hang out with my favourite Ostrich, she is a really a joker, she make me laugh non-stop. I like to go shopping with her, she will give me favourable advice(s) on whether I should buy anot.. I am a shopping addict, Anyone who have difficulity choosing outfits, I can help u.. I am good in helping friends to choose clothes from top to bottom... Believe in me, I will transform u to a princess or a prince...
To my Ostrich friend, Thanks for accompany me yesterday evening, so sorry to disturb U and Fabrian, and so so sorry to be a bright lamp post.. cya soon !
Last monday night went to Niqqi’s the cheese prata shop (so called the NUS roti prata) for dinner with Andy, Eva and Huiting.. It is my first time having dinner at 10pm, and this prata shop is the preferred choice for late night supper.
Actually that’s the only thing i love about the cheese prata shop — they serve a mean roti john.. Very savory and satisfying! one serving is already sufficient for a full meal.. And must order a piping hot glass of teh tarik (”pulled” tea) of course!
Roti Prata is not the end of our food topic of that day, our lovely tortoise still feeling empty after eating her prata.. Oh gosh, what happen to her, she can eat alot but still very slim, so jealous... After sending Ostrich back home, we proceed to Bedok North mee suan for supper, but too bad the place is being closed for cleaning.. So we decided to go to Siglap HongKong Cafe instead for our desserts.. I order my favourite Golden Fastasy (actually is mango promelo cum mango ice-cream), its very nice, must try.. It was around 1am in the morning, there were still alot of people around like us having our supper.. So amazing, these people dun need to sleep..
It' so fun to have them around, alot of fun and laugther.. To my lovely JAL girl cum tortoise, "All the best" and "U will be dearly missed, till we meet again." Let meet out again when u are back ok.. KTV on thursday, I will arrange...
Oh gosh, I am getting interested in this expensive hobbies of taking photos.. All thanks to my photography kakis cum close-friend Derrick, he was the one who introduced this to me. It's expensive but I love being posed as his model.. In recognition of the fun, sweaty and hard time we had together in pursue of one single objective, to get THAT one picture (fireworks)!
My fav pics...
Sunset view from my place..+11.jpg)
To me, it’s everything from emotional lost, to emotional support, to new emotions found.. To a city folk like me, it was an awesome display of pure content and happiness.. Something so simple, and yet so rewarding.. I figure life is supposed to be enjoyed, and if we were to worry too much, we’ll forget about fun, about making ourselves happy... If I see something I like, I hold on to it, thinking too much sometimes distraught us, perhaps Nike’s right when they say ‘Just Do It’...
So what’s so special about taking picture?
Is the enjoyment of seeing the beautiful images of myself..
I have a very simple philosophy (= attitude to life) - enjoy life. Is to enjoy life to the fullest.. Be happy always, and forget about the past.. Take thing easy and let go easy (Happy-go-lucky)..
Life is like a roller-coaster, there always full of ups and downs, with each hurdle, we become stronger and learned. This experiences we garner will allows us to work towards a better life and handle things better in the future, be it in the aspect of studies, work, and relationship.
(Quoted by Darren Toh)
"Believe and have faith… Fight for the things I want.. Do my best and leave the rest to fate…"
"Women must pretty all the way ~ so the most important is you must learn how to be pretty, so that man will always find us fresh.." My sec sch friend ~ Joyce is my idol, she getting prettier with each passing days, and her face complexion had improved alot, I'm so jealous. She is the one who brought to the beauty workshop. After going through some workshop(s), I really had learnt alot of beauty tips (nutrition, markup, dieting). Joyce pls help me to transform me to a beautiful lovely cutie sweetie sexy princess one day..
Hahaaa, I'm the only girl who don't really like red roses.. My favourite colour is white and purple.
Colours of Roses
Red - I love you or Encouragement
White - U r heavenly, reverence of innocence & purity
Pink - You are gentle & graceful
Light Pink - Gratitude & appreciation
Dark Pink - Admiration & sympathy joy & gladness
Orange - Enthusiasm
Blue - You are special
Purple - You are my romance
Yellow - Joy, Gladness, Freedom
Two Roses - Joined Together, Engagement
Red and White Roses - Together Unity
I am very perfectionist and romantic; I love girly stuffs, I love shopping.. I will buy things that are sweetie cutie lovely and romantic, and its must look nice on me... I love to dress up with colours, I will dress up even when just going down to the nearby market to buy food.. I dun like red roses because it's very normal, I am a person who like attention and being notice, I prefer something that are unique and difference from others (eg. light purple baby roses).. I am a flower lover, so whatever u give me, I will be very happy..
By the way, I will like Thanks Jonthan for accompanying me last sunday night to East Coast Park to see the lovely full moon (last day of cny). Thanks for everythings you had done on that day, thanks for brighten up my life with full of laugh and joy. He is the only friend who was free to accompany me. In-order to entertain me, he brought his guitar along.. He played the guitar and I sang, its so fun, its bring back our memories back to our school-life.. I miss my childhood life.. Once again, Jon Thank U so much.. Dun worry about me, I am alright now..
I want to be contented...
I will not forgive someone who had lied to me, to be a mutual trust is very important. A lie is just a lie, nothing can cover a lie for something.. When someone who is very close with me, happen to betray me, I will never forgive him anymore.. Why are you hurting me by telling me a lie at the first place, why don't you tell me the truth, maybe I can forgive you. But you had made a full of lie and I am the last one to get to know about this issue.. And you liked the gal so much before, and why are you still with me, and pretend that nothing happened with you and her. I hate guy with 2 legs in one boat.. And now you want me to patch back with you, the answer will always be a big NO, I'm so sorry to tell you this, Wilfred. I really want to thanks you for all your sms emails and gift send on several occasions, I am really touched by your words, I even cried when reading at it on that day 7th Nov 2006. But it really over between us, Wilfred I beg you, please return my freedom.. Please don't hurt me again.. "However when mutual trust doesn't exit between us, that mean I can't give my heart to him anymore, I won't love him anymore.."
Maybe it is the time to step out of my comfort zone, let go my past and lead my freedom now.. I am just like a lost bird being kept a cage for too long, finally release but don't have to courage to fly out.. Why? Its being 2 years being alone.. I really hope to have someone to hold on to, to be loved again..
Why can't someone give me a chance? Am I that bad? Guys are very shy to get close to me, maybe i give them a chance to say I had a very cold personality, so hard that can't break a conversation. I can be very quiet at first, actually I am observing and thinking on what to say to you, I can guess what you are saying next... Dun worry, I will get very close with you after several conversations, I am very easy-going and out-going.. This is scorpio's instinct..
I can make you laugh, joke and even tell you lame dirty jokes to make you laugh and smile.. I like guy who are tall and build, and he like to wear white shirt.. I like looking at guy's hands, its represent something behind it heehee, it must be big and clean.. Why? You will know the answer soon.. hahaaa
I love this song (Stand By me ~ sang by Shayne Ward), it's touches my heart, it's melt my heart into two pieces.. Chorus: "Will you stand by me, hold on, and never let me go.."
Anyone interested to know me, I am free, me anytime free for now.. Call me, Date me out !!
Busy busy, been busy with my social life lately that I've no time to blog. Busy gathering around with difference type of friends this week, spending some special moments with them, time spent chatting and eating around.. Oh gosh, I think I am getting fatter now, need to go on diet again... Ok ok I will do a quick update now...
Happy Birthday my dearest Joanna, OMG how old is she, she is borned in the day of 29 Feb 1980, this year will be his 27th birthday.. I feel so sad for her, celebrating birthday once in 4 years. I promised next year 2008, I will have the opportunity to celebrate yr actual birthday, I will buy you a big special present for you, I promise.. Dun worry babe, I will plan a big birthday party next year ok.
I watched 'Just Follow Law' with Shawn, Jon, Vinc, Joanna, Janice, Ivan, Derrick and Maple yesterday. It's darn hilarious.. Funny but it was not worth paying $8.50 to watch that lame movie, oh its just a entertainment. Thanks Derrick for treating me movie and meal(s).. Love you all so much, thanks for accompany me.. Muacks.
Today then I discover a very bad habit of mine, especially at work. HABIT of staring at the computer screen with my eyes very near to the computer, straining... Looking at figures for 8 hours at work; making my eyes are so dry, I even fall asleep with my eyes opened infront of the computer with my hand holding a pen, hahaa pretending to be busy.. And I hardly go out, feeling so tired after work.. (*.*) Oh gosh, I think my eye sight is getting Very very bad liao. Ugh~~~~
I'm really really tired. Taking by beauty sleep soon. But before that, I need someone to tell me bedtime stories!!!! Ha... *grinz*