The past few days have been hectic - both emotionally and physically.
My left eyelid has been twitching for the past week.. What does it mean when your left eyelid twitches? 1) Does it mean that bad things will happen? I seriously hope not. 2) Does it mean that I will dio 4D soon? Judging from the fact that I have never dio any 4D in my life, and the kind of lucky draw prizes I get (the usual bottom few).. I doubt it will happen to me anytime soon. 3) Or Am I just plain tired? I think i am just very tired. So... please give me a hugZzz to stop that twitching! (okay, nothing to do with that, i just want a hug!!) I know i'm not very hugggablezz, hugz to all of you all back! lalala =D
This is the one that I had made.
Doesnt look as nice but it's taste good.. hoho such a pity that my mum and bro don't like to eat cheezecake. Bake for who? Let u all guess... Of cos me la, I love to eat cheesecake.. yummy !
This is the recipe courtesy from me to my best friend ~ Janice. My dear Janice, this is the time to try to cook some good food for future hubby lor... If you need any help regards to cooking, I will help u through ok... My cooking skills quite good lor, japanese food, western food, chinese food, desserts, etc... This cheezecake is a non-baked kind. This suits you best as you dont have an oven at home. Janice please try to make it yourself ok, if cannot then call me anytime, my phone is 24/7 service. Janice Jia You....
Updates
Birthday these few months, alot of my friends' birthday coming, I am going bankrupt soon... Need to start saving some disposal income aside for presents and celebrations... Yeah, my birthday is around the corner, 69 days to my birthday... 7 November is my birthday, please remember ok... I don't want to celebrate my birthday alone again, I felt very very lonely last year celebrating my own birthday alone... May this wish come true this year... I will list down my birthday wishes soon... get back to u all soon ok....
Studying is finally starting to get better - I'm understanding more, I had actually started studying and classes are no more a drag cause I either listen or make notes for another subject. Either way, I am being more productive and it feels good... See ~ my poor fingers are paralyse now. It is been a long time since I saw that lump during last term June exams, 3hr paper. Always have this tendency to grip my pen hard.
Exams depending on my results. Thanks Daddy for your encouragement, he added in a motivation factor hoping it would persuade me into staying in a levels and finishing the course - $1000 bonus allowances for every paper that score above 70 marks. $500 bonus for every paper that score above 60 marks! Daddy, how about those papers that score only 50+, will I still got any bonus allowance... Is this my birthday present this year, Daddy... Its just so HARD to achieve those marks, Daddy u are killing me... ACCA is very tough, but I will do well, I promise u....
Relationship no words can describe how I felt now. Have I really let go my feeling, the answer is No. My feeling with Dxxxxx is still kept inside. I really miss the time we spent chatting online, it's so memorable, but now we seem be very estrange currently. I felt very very lost, lonely and neglected now, can the time be revised back to where we started before. And you said to me before, allocating more time to our friendship and slowly process, and let nature takes it course, it is true or a lie... I need an answer? Losing my love is like losing all confidence in myself. I am very tired of myself. I have really lost control in myself. My heart has overule my mind at times. Heart is Blind... I am tired of not being able to be myself. I know I am very emotionally unstable... Well, I am a sore loser in relationship... what to do, that is me... Broken Heart !
Financially I'm doing much better than before, working and studying at the same time. I tend to buy alot of clothes these few days becos most of clothes before are too loose, I am now slimmer, formation is needed for this time being. I had being spending more than what I earned, but I've been saving up bit by bit... I only go shopping when needed, I promise...
Socially I've been trying to keep my social life on a lowdown seeing as exams are just round the corner and i really need to start concentrating and studying my ass off. But I've been going out every weekend, every night with my close friends. Thanks them for concerning me these few days when I was feeling down... Thanks Derrick for your shoulder, u had been so nice to me, before and now, I can still imagine the thoughts we had before, now let us be friends forever ok... Thanks Eva and Kaze for your love, I really appreciated... I've spent quite some time with studying and of course mark, my focus now is studying no more thinking of relationship. I really wanna catchup more with all my friends.... soon!
Family I'm finally starting to clear things up with mum. She stopped to nag me of buying unnecessary things, for coming home late, spending nights outside, etc... We can talk for more than an hour without nagging me. Mummy, I know this is for my own good, but I had grown up liao, I know what is right and wrong, don't need to worry about me... Haha I think that is a major improvement. Also we have both compromised so at least we're both happy in one area instead of none. She even wore my new clothes to office, I had not wore it before, so sad, afterall she is still my mother... Mummy I love u so much... Muackkkkkkkk.
Work I had being working as an accounts assistant in DFS at Changi Airport T2. I will gain as much experiences here to secure me for getting my CPA holder. Thanks boss for your super arrangements that u had done for me, letting me off in between of works to attend my ACCA classes. In order to coverup the time lost in attending the afternoon classes, I need to work 2hr overtime every 3 days. Its fun working there, and I am now currently helping up in the IMF stuff, representing my company in this big event, I felt very honored and it indeed a good opportunity to gain my communication skills... Thanks Mr Marcus Lim, my boss of DFS.
Hobby I getting more and more interested in this expensive hobby, taking photos. What's so special about taking picture? To me, it's everything from emotional lost, to emotional support, to new emotions found. Every picture represents different emotions and expressions. It was an awesome display of pure content and happiness. Something so simple, and yet so rewarding. I figure life is supposed to be enjoyed and if we were to worry too much we'll forget about fun, is about making ourselves happy. If I see something I like, I will hold on to it, thinking too much sometimes distraught us, perhaps Nike is right when they say 'Just Do It'. Opportunity comes once in a blue moon and I don't even have my camera on hand, and even if I did, will I be able to catch it fast enough? Maybe I will, maybe I won't, the point is, if I have my camera, I stand a chance, gee, it might even be an award-winning photo, but without my camera, I am completely lost. To be a photographer, it's pretty straightforward, always be prepared, always ready to shoot, be fast, be spontaneous, be passionate in your shoot. Who knows, one of these days, opportunity knocks and you might find yourself being recognized for your works.
To conclude: To someone who had lost something in their life, it might be hope, things which you never thought you ever get it see might just happen for you. To someone who's always contemplating between decisions, to move on, to let go, or to hold on, it might be a sign to ask you to have courage to plunge into what your heart says.
Heehee... please sit back and enjoy the slideshow of me and my friends... I really miss the days we spent together, hope to meet everyone out again.... Let plan an outing, I will be co-ordinator of the event, let me see where and when to meet... I will get back to you all asap... okie
Recently being addicted to the Channel U drama series called the "My Lovely Samsoon", it is a touching romantic korean drama series aired on every week monday to friday at 10pm. To prove his mother on how much she loved her son, she told his mother this story: "Let me start by telling you about a female writer. Every night before she went to bed. She would write a letter to her husband and leave it on his desk before going to bed. Her hushand would read it before he left for work in the morning. He was the first to read her work before it went into print. ...The first cake that Samsoon make every day will be reserved for Zhenxian. She want to bake the most mouthwatering cake just for him. That showed how much She loved her son..." I really hope my special someone will play this song tune for me. I really love this song ~ Can't help falling in love. 
There is one phrase of today episode, I will like to share with everyone... "I merely ceased loving you. You will always be right here in my heart... Though I know he is lying, I want very much to is believe in him. Seeing the look in his eyes makes me pine for him. I hate myself for being so weak. Losing my love is like losing all confidence in myself." Very sad right....
In order to borrow 50 million won from Zhenxian (owner of restaurant 'Bon Appetit') to pay to the bank to buy back the house that had being mortgaged, SanShun (pastry chef) had made a promised to him... "As of now, We will prevent to date", and she agreed his offer. She don't have to pay back the money to him, just have to play her part well to cheat his mother's suspicion, and to put an act infront of the staff. Like what he said, just play her part well and she can keep the money without paying him. She get paid 50 million won just to put an act... wow I also want.
The Dating Contract is :
I went to my friend ~ Eva house this morning to do some exercise: Gym, Sauna & Swimming.... so fun and shiok. Doing exercise to me is like going to hell, so long never do exercise liao, whole body is now in pain... But my mind now is more fresher, let Bygones be Bygones (to forgive and forget), I had no regret knowing you. You and I need time to nurture a relationship. I believe in fate and destiny, let nature takes it course, Slowly and naturally.... I am sure my charming Prince will come unexpectedly, Eva quoted. My inspiration came from and apparently when I received this love message from my best friend Janice: "..find a man who can walk beside you, who dun walk too fast as I may not be able to follow behind, dun find a man who walk behind me as I may not be able to lead him." My reply to her: "Aww... it sounds good. I would like to find a man like that too...Heehee. Truth be told that the "right" one is hard to find though worth waiting for if he should exist." While it is a relief to put down the bag for the moment, I would not simply leave it anywhere becos the content is precious to me. I recognise I can never put in the same hours for all roles that I play. The key to balance is to decide the priorities and their ranking. Now is the time to sit down to think and decide our own definition of success and happiness each year (goal setting). I will strive to excel at where I am. Be assured that when you are at the right place in the right time, you will find success. We will find obstacles along the way, what is sweet success without some adversities. With focus, I can accomplish what I set out to do, whether or not others concur with me. Time to get back on track. Hope it is not too late... I am considered Normal - 18.5 to 24.9 and I had a low risk of getting heart disease and diabetes. Comment: You are thin, eat more.... so funny! Click here to find out your BMI. Underweight Below 18.5 Normal 18.5 to 24.9 Overweight 25 to 29.9 Obese Over 30 BMI (kg/m2) (for adults) Risk of Heart Disease and Diabetes 27.5 and above High Risk 23.0 - 27.4 Moderate Risk 18.5 - 22.9 Low Risk (healthy range) Less than 18.5 Risk of nutritional deficiency disease and osteoporosis
To all my friends, Thanks for these few days comforting me, nagging and giving advices on how to carry on my life. I promise I will be fine, don't have to worry about me ok. And to my lovely cutie Eva, Thanks for inviting me to your place today, it so fun having you around me, thanks for your accommodations. The green bean soup is very very nice...yummy. THANK U everyone!! A flying kiss to everyone I known.... Muack!!
I love this line: "...Do not try to make up for lost distance by going further or harder. Spend the time trying to get back on track...."
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wow... its so fun to drive at late night, where there are very few vehicles on the street, like the whole road is belong to you, but too bad cannot speed in Singapore. I drove from east to north, then north back to east again... fun fun fun and still fun.
Thanks to Derrick, fetching me from airport and taking the risk to let me drove on his new Toyota car, feel so scared at first because long time never drive liao. But he told me not to worry "I am very confident it will be ok", this makes me more worried and scared. Everything seem to be ok at first, but there is one damn fast sportcar approaching behind me and then beside me, I was at the 2nd lane, it driving very fast changing from the 3rd lane to the 1st lane just to exit out Fort Road. Maybe he wants to test my driving skills, he thought that lady drivers are lousy when comes to driving... Lucky I got the skill to manage the situation, if not I will definitely crush into the sportcar. My skills not bad right, Derrick.
We went to Chomp Chomp for dinner, the same food again... but my favourite still the BBQ stringray, satays and chocolate beadcrud, yummy... Now think about food make me hungry!! Yeah friends, must try the chocolate beadcrud, it really nice and shiok, and it is special no other place selling it only there, I never lie, must try ok... Jamie recommendations.
Where can get the money to buy myself a car (weekend car first, cheaper)... Everything is expensive; car itself, COE, ERP, road tax, petrol, parking, etc...so expensive. Stop dreaming...
Let countdown 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1 days to results... 21 August 2006 the official date to release ACCA results, how do I grade myself in this year. It will not be as good as last year dec results, because I had no mood to study during the month of May, alot of things happened to me on that particular month, ups and downs life.... That is nothing I can do to change the results now, if the results came out to be fail, the next step I will do is to retake the paper(s) again, no point to spend $$ on appealling. There will be one paper I will definitely fail for sure....
If I will have followed my friends to study in Australia ~ Queensland University. I will have graduated in this year Dec. Graduated with Australia CPA certificate plus a degree honors, which mean that I can worked in any of Australia accounting/auditing firms. But I had chosen ACCA as my choice, because of several reasons: 1) my family/friends 2) the food here 3) finanical problems very expensive 4) ACCA reputation worldwide, etc. I always wanted to go overseas to study to explore more, but my father wanted me to stay in Singapore instead, he said to me that ACCA is better but its hard to pass. But when you passed from ACCA, your standards will be higher than those study in 3 local uni and overseas graduates. Father, you are right, but ACCA is very very very hard to pass... 14 core subjects are all killer papers, and next year July will have a major change in some of the core papers which means the standards are getting tougher, need to pass early if not it will be worse.
I had being studying in ACCA for about 1 years plus, every subjects are different in nature, every papers are tough, nothing in this life is easy, if it is easy the whole world will be ACCA graduates. And nothing stand to be different anymore than other overseas or local uni graduates. My main focus now is study hard, no more thinking of others things...
Afterall, I really wish that my results is good, just pass and if possible flying colours.
I had finally watch the movie "The Lake House". This movie is really incredibly and impossibly for both actress and actor to live two years apart, and each at a time in their lives when they are struggling with past disappointments and trying to make a new start. Sharing this unusual bond, they reveal more of themselves to one another with each passing week - their secrets, their doubts and dreams, until they find themselves falling in love. Determined to bridge the distance between them at last and unravel the mystery behind their extraordinary connection, they tempt fate by arranging to meet. But, by trying to join their two separate worlds, they could risk losing each other forever. Afterall, the entire movie is quite nice, it is really incredible and impossibe for this to happen in reality.
After 1 month plus, we are finally met out, it seem to be very long ago. Dxxxxx, sorry to mention, I dont feel the ease yesterday. Maybe I am too tired after working, and you felt the same too, I can feel it and I had noticed you in the theatre that you very tired and sleepy. You dun need to arrange a date to compensate the promise you had made to me. I feel even more up sad...
I didnt talk much yesterday, I felt a bit awkward towards u, trying to give u a good impression of me, scare to cry infront u, scare to smile at u so that u will not be charm by me. I am feeling very sleepy and cold in the theatre, Thanks for concerning about me, so sweet of u... I really like to lean on your shoulder but i scare i will not let off of u... Sorry
Life's is like embarking on a journey similar to boarding an mrt train only it takes a lifetime to arrive at the final destination we are heading. We each board different trains and travel in different directions, this direction is where we are heading in life. Some people know exactly where they want to go and some are travelling blindly aimless. Sometimes along the way we meet someone nice who boards the same train and keeps us company, as we get to know that person better a relationship is formed. As time pass us by, there can be two outcome either the person continues to sit in the train with us till the end of our journey or he alights at the next stop. It is all part and parcel of life as we embark on this journey. Even though people may board and alight the train, there will always be some past that lingers within the train and this can be defined as memories. There is a saying "Even if you live till your very last breath if you cannot bring along any happy memories with you to your death bed it is perfectly fine.. Just don't bring a handful of regrets !"
Regrets are risk we never take, a person who risk nothing, gains nothing, learn nothing and is nothing. Different people take different kind of risk for different kind of reasons. Some people believe playing shares is a form of risk though big risk but promises big returns. Love is also about taking risk, when we meet the right person we have a decision to make whether to take the risk of allowing ourselves to fall in love with that person and risk getting hurt in return but still feel it's worth it or reject the person and hope we don't live to regret not taking that risk. I'm just glad i took the risk at least i know i won't wake up one day regretting and wondering what it may be like and whether or not things might work out if given the chance.
This year NDP is the most memorable one because the very first time attending the live parade on the actual day itself, I usually got tickets on the previews. Thanks to Eva, who had accommpanied me to the stadium, so sweet of u. I tried to call alot of my friends, but they are not able to go with me, so sad, but I still got a friends Eva to contact, Sorry Eva for the last minutes arrangement. Hope u like the lovely date we had spent together heehee... Taking alot of pictures of foods, scenery, people, NDP formations and fireworks. And Thanks to ZhenRui for coming out to meet us for supper ~ dim sum in geylang... Yummy! Not able to sleep after a full meal, thinking of the lovely fireworks I had taken.
Pictures...
The only tiny little paratroops
Prefect landing... cheer for them
Soliders matching in...
Can anyone see the formation of 2006
Everyone is singing the National Anthem, I am talking photo of the Singapore Flag, feel very sad about it... So Sorry Singapore! Happy 41th National Day
Lovely sunset and Saying goodbye to our National Stadium
The first show of the day from the People's Assocation... my mother is one of 970 participants, I was there in the stadium to give her the full support.
The second show of the day from Singapore Soka Assocation... my cousin is also one of the participants heehee... Adrain good work.
The last show of the day and its finale...
wow... the fireworks display is fantastic, I cant imagine my digital camera can capture that wonderful lovely image of the fireworks display. Anyone decided to see, send me sms, then i will send u the file via email or msn.... Please enjoy the photos above.... and Happy National Day
I am really very sick... bad flu, sore throat, mouth ulcer, headache, fever, lost my voice... etc
My health is not very good now, it is because I am on diet that which had destoryed my health. I heard from news that a guy weighted 100kg plus, diagnosed a doctor for help but the surgeon fail to save his life. I dun want to be like him, died at a young stage...
Falling sick can be good and bad....
Good... my mother is very concerned about me, she take care of me by cooking healthy food, boil herbal tea for me, feed me medication... And for my friends, when they knew that I am sick, they will sms me ("please take good care ok, drink more water, and rest early"), buy me Vitamin C, coming to my place to accompany me.... they're make me realise that i was never ever ever really alone.
Bad... I am still very very very lonely, I am on MC today staying at home alone, facing the empty walls just like staying in a prison... Thought of studying, but when I open up the book I started to get tired... Thought of going out, but where to go... Thought of going to the beach, but I scared my health will get worse... Thought of calling someone, but I scared he is busy with his works... What can I do? I am really lose...
My fear in life is not death, but loneliness....
