An early lovely birthday celebration on 21 Oct 2006 Saturday, with all my beloved animals gang... tortise, piglet, hamster and ostrich. I really enjoyed myself on that day, I really appreciate, touched and blessed, thanks alot of the lovely present ~ Escada ~ Island Kiss perfume. Yipee, one of the wishes had fulfilled.
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Dinner at Suntec City marche, desserts at Milenia Walk TCC and lastly to Ministry Of Sound (MOS). I really enjoyed the moments spent at TCC, "Armed with brownie chocolate cake and a sang birthday song... Thanks for bringing my smile, laughter and joy back to me. This is my first time going clubbing with Eva and Kaze, I had long long time never stepped into disco or pub, I had abit out-dated, but I really happy spending the time with them, its really fun, thanks u all for the early birthday celebrations...
I am looking forward to alot of celebration(s).
* 29 Oct 2006 ~ wedding dinner
* 02 Nov 2006 ~ with 7 Nov birthday gal(s)
* 03 Nov 2006 ~ Kaze
* 04 Nov 2006 ~ JKL gang
* 05 Nov 2006 ~ Sec sch gals
* 07 Nov 2006 ~ my birthday
My dear Kaze is bringing me to a nice place to celebrate my birthday on 3 Nov, I really looking forwards for that day to come, I am wondering what will happen on that day...
on 4 Nov 06, with my beloved JKL gang, Jonathan is singing a birthday song in one of the hotel lounge, Janice is baking strawberry cheezecake, and etc...
I wish, that someone special will celebrate my birthday with me on 7 Nov 06... will this come true !!
Yesterday night I had the same dream again, dream of him again... This poem is written for someone who is always holds a special place in my heart...
Yup I am stuck late last night to do some reading, the very first time studying till around 2am... very strange right, this is not the usual me, usually I will studying when the exams about to approach me, but this time round, the exams are getting tougher. I really no time liao, so need to study early... I am going crazy soon, god pls help me! hahaa but most of the time, I had being chatting with friends on msn...
It's 12.29am already and I am becoming more awake instead. Maybe bcos of the MSN conversations that I had with Jolina and Janice (triple 'J'). We talked about everything, anything that we can think of, about the difficulties we faced, love, etc. Anyway, I felt so heartened somehow, after talking to them.. and also felt heartbroken while receiving Janice's honeymoon photos, its beautiful taken and feel sweet to see them together so lovely. I am now thinking of someone, the guy who I had expressed my love to... waiting for a miracle to appear.
I am still waiting for u... somehow u are always in my heart. I really miss the times we spent chatting online, going out for dates. After 3 months of being estrange, I had become mellowed when it comes to love. "Love is very important in anybody's life, no matter what age you are at. But the attitude I have now is very different from when I know u before". I am not so aggressive about it now. I am no so anxious for it to come into my life and I appreciate other kinds of love, like friendship or self-love. It can be very romantic to spend an evening by myself. I don't really have to rely on a certain person to provide those romantic feelings for me.
This is want to say to u, let be friends first, and let's see how things go down the road. I will allocate more time in our friendship, let it grow and progress slowly, let nature take it course. My birthday is coming, I really hope u can celebrate this special day with me...
Anyway, he might not know this, becos he seldom (or not even at all) came over to my blog to read.. don't be sad for me, its ok !
I always felt glad at "more quality" conversations like that. Thanks Jolina and Janice for yr advice... Love u all so much, muacksssssss!
Janice is baking cheezecake for me, I am so excited how is the outcome of the cake will be, becos the last time she bake, the cake is so soggy (wet and soft). By the way, Janice have u scanned whether yr baby is a boy or a girl.. Everyone is guessing and throwing bet on this u know.. But I am guessing a baby girl from u lor.. How, what is the outcome? Tell me please.. godsister want to know?
I really looking forwards to the month of November.. Alot of things happening for me, can't wait to see what the miracle will appear ! I wish...to be a Cinderella one day.
I am now addicted to the Channel U drama series ~ My Princess Hours. And I must say that it's really really good. The very creative and clever bear concept at the end of every episode. That it's so touching.. I bursts into tears for yesterday episodes, when her parents came over the palace to visit her, but she need to do the exam first, but she came back to her room, her parents had left, left behind her favourte kimchi. Even today just a little while ago, whenever I listen to one of the song off the OST, I started thinking over the scene again, the scenes will just put themselves on auto-play mode in my brain and bring tears to my eyes.
Now the time is 9am, this mean that I had only slept for 5 hours...
Are You a Romantic or Realistic?
You are a Total Romantic
For you, love is like a fairy tale. Or magic. Or a Meg Ryan movie. Problem is, you sort of want all three. You bring the spark in the relationship. In turn, you expect your guy to keep the fire burning. Not a bad deal, as long as you find the right Prince.
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Your Love Number is 6
Who you fall in love with is all about who you trust. Loyalty is important to you, and you want the most faithful of lovers. In return, you never let your heart or eyes wander. Open and honest, your relationships tend to be free of secrets.
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Well..... Here some joke(s) to link..
The 5C(s) to the newer 5B(s) !
I don't need a CAR, but I want a BMW
I don't need a CONDO, but I want a BUNGALOW
I don't need you to have CASH, but I want you to own a BANK
I don't need you to have a CAREER, but I want you to be a BOSS
It's interesting for you to read!
Most of you would have heard of the Singapore 5C's! :
Car, Condo, Credit Card(Gold), Cash and Career
Heard of the 5B's?
B - BMW
B - Body
B - Brain
B - Billionaire
B - Bungalow
The 5K's that Singapore men scare of .....
Kiasu (scared of losing)
Kiasee (scared of dying)
Kiabor (scared of wife)
Kiaboh (scared of having nothing)
Kiachenghu (scared of government)
We've been reading about the 5C's ! and 5K's for Singaporeans, now comes the 5 Numerals and Malaysia's equivalent...
Singaporeans "practice" for Simple Living :
1 - One Wife
2 - Two Children
3 - Three Bedroom Condo
4 - Four Wheels
5 - Five Figure Salary
Malaysians Malays "practice" for Simple Living :
5 - Five Children
4 - Four Wives
3 - Three Figure Salary
2 - Two Wheels
1 - One-Storey Link House
Hahahaa... so funny !
Thanks Jolina for yr email... How have u been? How is yr new job? I really miss u so much, miss yr laughter, miss yr smile, miss the times we spent gossiping in office and even toilet breaks.. feeling something missing, feel so empty without u.. please continue to send me emails, updates me on yr interesting events, I really love to read yr emails... Jolina, I miss u so much !
Thanks to William Ma, your lame jokes this morning really help me to brighten up my day... I was so bored today, stay at home the whole day studying for my coming exams in Dec. Heehee, I had actually wrote him a testimonial yesterday night, but he is too shy to accept it, because the words I wrote touches him bah... But I don't know which part of the phrase touches him, I just wrote something that related to what I know about him... Oh I'm sorry William, next time I will wrote it short and sweet, ok...
Lame jokes...
Q: Which is the heaviest noodles in the world?
A: Wantan noodles... (becos wanton = one tonn)
Q: Who is the strongest person in the world?
A: The person carry the wanton noodles..
Why am I so stupid, just a stupid lame jokes, also cannot answer. I had tested alot of my friends this morning in msn, they are able to answer me... Why only me cannot answer, maybe I have low EQ & IQ. Thanks William ..
Thanks to Eva and Kaze for yr testimonial.. I am very touched by the words. Don't worry about me, my mood is ok for now. I am balanced and feeling good. I will make myself free on 21 Oct, animals gathering again... Now is the sheep turn to make a wish "Mary never had a little lamb"... Can we go to MOS on that day, I had long time never step into pub/disco liao, feel so outdated, my body is aging, need some exercise to stay young... And Thanks to my beloved guys & gals, for planning my birthday celebration, I can't wait for 4 Nov to come.. Thanks everyone for remembering my birthday, I feel so glad to have u all as my friends, I will give each one a kiss on yr cheek ok, Muackssssssssss ! THANK U
Feeling very sleepy and nauseous. It's the hazy air that I am breathing in. The haze is getting worse each day, I was always at home, hardly went out. Oh gosh, I don't sit well with my tummy, there's butterfly in my stomach... After a good rest in the afternoon, I am feeling better now... Thanks guys for yr concerns, u all are so sweet to me.. I am really touched and moved by u all, feeling like flying now !! catch me before I fly up in the air... hahaaa
Ok, enough of this. Time to clear up more work and sign out for the day. Tomorrow's another beautiful day to look forwards to. Appreciate each day as if there is no tomorrow!!!!
I just dropped my tears tonight.. I couldn't control myself anymore.. I have tried holding myself back.. But I lost myself tonight, TotALLy... I AM SO ALONE .
I cried and cried, after I put the phone down, tears continued to roll down. It hurts me even more when I think about it.. It seems like a simple phone conference discussion with the guys, but I told them "I dun know what got the better of me"... Coz I just "LOST" myself..
Wrote a short note for my beloved god-mother
Dear Ah ma,
you are really a very fantastic woman. I will never forget how much u dote on me. I will never forget you for the rest of my life... One regretful thing is that I had abit neglect u sometimes these years, leaving u alone in the old folk home alone. I knew that you are actually giving up on your life as you do want be a burden to us.. U are not a burden to me, I was supposed to look after u, I am your god-daugther, I had a duty to look after u.. All I can say is that you are really a very brave and caring mother to me.. Knowing that you had cancer, you never give up, fight for every stages of life.. Whenever, I am feeling down, you will be there for me forever, advicing me on what to do.. I am so sorry that I was unable to find time to visit you, accompany and talk to you and understand you. I promise I will continue to lead a happy life, and I also hope that you will also lead a happy life in your another dimensional world... Ah ma, I really miss u so much...
Best Regards,
Jamie
Jamie, was once a strong gal. She is not the gal who will cry over things easily. Always the small cute bouncy little gal, still crazy with sweet and cutie stuffs. Her laughters was always contagious, and her smiles were none than attractive. She learns to be brave becos she was grew up from a strict family background. She is tough, She like to race and she likes to be pushed.
BUT NOW, many changes had happened and make a impact in my lives, every little things, every little thoughts, had changed.. I had changed to a very insecure personality, become weaker than before. Why is it whenever I met up with problems, I am always being left alone to brace myself up?... That why I become very conserative, likes to do things by myself, because I can be quite annoyed sometimes, so I don't wish to increase anyone's burden. I like to guess on people reaction. I'm a daring type who could just do thing differently from other people in the same society, I dare to fight for what I think belong to me. Even I acts confident outside, I mostly feel lonely and alone. Whenever I breaks up with someone, I will show alot of emotion, even deep down inside pain and agony, cry over things easily. But not for long, after comforting down, I will come back to be the cheery and merry person again.
I love "freedom" so before and after marriage, freedom must be the same. I like to trust even if you does not trust me. I like to be the one who is "right", I'm quite a straight forward type, so if I does not like you anymore I will tell you straight to your face. You are lucky, if I really in love you because I'm honest, truthful and will never bore you.. Every love and relationship are always real. I'm vulnerable type, people will tend to worry about, and they will be prepared when I say "its over", because I can't survive by myself. I can't take care about myself when I am sick.
I love to be entertained, hate to be left alone in one corner. I'm fun and I likes to tease people. Someone who is close to me, will know that deep down beneath that I am confident and cold hearted person, I am just as fragile as any woman. I may seem to be strong in front of my friends and family, but in actual deep in my heart I am weak.. Just like what people who says the more a person seems to be strong, but in actual they are even more weaker than those who seems to be weak.. I am getting weaker and weaker each time, and at a loss of what I should do.. I really do not want act a brave in front of anyone anymore, because I am really very too tired to act.. I'm easily hurt so be nice to me.. I need a good break.. I really hope that I can settle my problems once and for all as soon as possible, so that I can leave this stressful place and go on a holiday to forget all of my problems... What is my birthday wish is year?
I wish..
* to find true love
* classic elegant wallet
* DKNY watch
* Escada ~ Island Kiss perfume
* Sony Ericsson W800i
* digital professional camera
* notebook
* Levi jean (size 27 or 28)
* a bouquet of my favourite tulips
* TCC oreo cheesecake
* ben & jerry ice-cream
* travel overseas
* full of loves and joys
* diamond(s)
* .......................
Hahahaa, I am just kidding, just make me really really happy on that day, that is what I need, really hope to be blessed and touched. I did not need these things above to brighten my day, becos I don't need them, I dun want u all guys to spend money on unnecessary things. I like things that are made unique DIY homemade stuffs... What I really hope for this year, is to find someone who can be with me forever...
Yipee, Jonathan is singing a birthday song for me this year at Hotel Intercontinental Lounge.. This is what he promised me last year, we were at the same hotel lounge last year celebrating my birthday. Its really fun to have u all guys around me, u all make me laugh, I really enjoyed myself last year... Jonathan, u are not going to break the promise right, I really can't wait for the day to come.
I heard from his gf, Ivy that he had composed a song especially for me, and he will be singing that song for me... Hahahaaa, you may be thinking who is this Jonathan, he is a friend of mine, he is not the Singapore idol finalise lor... He is my buddy, he known him not long ago just few years back, I was introduced to him when I dropped by my friend's chalet birthday party, he was singing birthday song with a guitar to the birthday girl, that is the time I was charmed by him. He is quite handsome and tall, too bad, he was now attached, if not I really hope he can be mine... hahahaa, must be joking, Jamie wake up... Oh gosh, Ivy dun get angry with me ok, I am just joking and dreaming of my dream guy... Ivy, I'm so Sorry !!!
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Ok...., Back to study. Exams coming, 2 months to countdown! There's so many things to study. I am going crazy, my brain is going boommm, god please help me !!
First of all, my beloved god-mother had passed away on Monday early in the morning at around 2am, she died peacefully leaving no doubts. Died of stomach cancer at terminal stage.
She had no one to look forwards to, all her children had migrated overseas, abandoned her completely leaving her in the old folk home all by herself. I had tried my best to contact them but can't get through... She was not been doing any operation(s) since then, because there is no kins were around her, no one to authorise, not even my parents can help. And she is in the terminal stage, the doctor told us that if she did the operation, the chance of surviving is less than 50%. So we decided to let her to be her ownself for this time being, just have to wait for the day to end... I fought the overwhelming sense of loss on that day when I heard the news... This is it, early in the Monday morning 2am, she had finally left us...
When I heard the news, I was very clam, wake up from my sleep, clean my face, change my clothes and off to the hospital with my mother. In the mortuary I didn't cry or breakdown. But when I went back to old folk home, I sat on her previous bed where she used to sleep, that was it, I finally struck me that she was gone. That was when I really broke down and really cried. I really miss her so much, she looked after me when I was just a baby, but I don't really have the time to look after her few years, abit neglect her sometimes, now she is gone, there something missing in me now... She is part of my family, but I did nothing for her, if she had done the operation she will not had left us.. The only thing now, is to help up in her funeral wake, let her rest in peace, and I really hoping that her children will come to visit her soon...
Today, 11 Oct 2006 is the day, the final day seeing my god-mother for the last time. Her children were not here to visit her, I had no choice but to take over their role to send my god-mother off on her last journey. This is what I can do for her now, but I know her wish now is too see her own children visiting her.. I'm so sorry Ah Ma, I really had did my best liao..
I sincerely from the bottom of my heart THANK U ALL for coming down to help me up today, I really appreciate what u all had done for me, I am really very very touched today, THANK U !!
Thanks for the HOME for the favourable cheques and their help in the wake. Thanks to my colleagues and bosses for coming down every night to accompany me through the nights, encouraging me giving me advice to stay strong. Thanks to Derrick, Jonathan, Ivan and Vincent for helping me to carry the coffin. Thanks everyone for your helps through these 3 days, I really appreciate. And lastly, Thanks to Darren, for your advice, I promise you I will not give up, I will continue to strike for my future, thanks you for replying my emails, I know u are busy, I feel so sorry to disturb you every-now-then, I better dun disturb you further, don't wish to increase your burden... THANK U EVERYONE !!
"Life and death are part and parcel of life".. I must be strong and continue to move on, I promise my god-mother today that I will not give up, and I know she will be around me to support me through this traumatic period with me together. Ah ma, no matter where you are now, you will always in my heart forever, I really miss u so much, wish me all the best ok, ah ma...
Millions of millions of THANK U... I really appreciate it, I own you all a favour, I will try my best to fulfill back when you all need help ok... THANK U !!
8 October 2006, Sunday
My dear lovely friend of mine got married yesterday, I am very happy of her, she finally achieve what she always wanted to have in her life. In the bottom of my heart, I sincerely wishing Yaping and Kelvin a lifetime of happily-ever-after. Congratulations to your wedding !! Thanks for asking me to be your sister, I really enjoy myself yesterday... Hope your marriage is full of magical !
Yaping, this is for u... Hope u like my creation !
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There were be more photos... waiting for yaping to send me hers !! And for each individual pictures what channel do you all want me to send via to...
I'm obsessed with Food recently.
yeah, I live to eat and not eat to live!
Mid-Autumn festival is here again!
Mooncakes given free by several hotels...
Goodwood Park Hotel 
Hahahaa... Everyone favourite D-24 Durian Snowskin Mooncakes. This year, the hotel had also given us their new nutritious alternative favour to try out, Yam Paste with Red Dates in Snowskin.. Its taste quite nice when infused into the yam, the mooncake is a blend of natural sweetness and wholesome goodness. I gives 4 /5 thumbs up for the Yam paste with red dates mooncakes...
Fullerton Hotel
Wow... I gives 5 thumbs up... They should give us more, why only 2 pieces... Their double eye yolk is good and not that sweet. So far, the best I have eaten this year... Very good !! Yummy !!
Eater's Palace
My boss's favourite, mooncakes with yam fillings. I don't particulary adore Yam but this is really nice. It tasted better when it was hot. Crispy on the outside, but soft and sweet inside with egg yoke.. I gives 3/5 thumbs up...
Hotel Intercontinental
Japanese Sweet Potato with Champagne Chocolate.. It's really kinda disappointing, the colours are nice but it taste kinda strange. But after cutting it and eating it together with the white chocolate, hmmmm... still quite palatable. I don't suggest wasting money on these. There are better mooncakes out there.. keke. I gives 1/5 thumbs up...
Meritus Mandarin Singapore
White Lotus Paste with Double Egg Yolks and the Golden Ingots... Its taste normal, not very fantastic, nothing special to me, too traditional... I gives 2/5 thumbs up...
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MOONCAKE OVERLOAD. Okay.. I think I have enough of mooncakes... I don't really like to eat mooncakes, too sweet, it is not good for health too, easy put on weight if you eat too much because its contain alot of sugar and fat... Hahaaa, I am now on diet, better control...
Tomorrow is Mid-Autumn Festival.. our company will be having a small celebration in the company's conference room. Orchid Garden Catering buffet for lunch tomorow, planned and organised by me alone... Hi Everyone, please come in with empty stomach, I had ordered quite alot of food, please help to finish all ok, don't waste food.. Hope everyone will be happy with my arrangement... Once again, Happy Mid-Autumn Festival everyone !!
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At the same time, one of my colleagues Ms Jolina Koh is leaving us tomorrow, her last day of service.. Jolina, I will miss u, its so nice working here why resign, don't you miss us... All the Best to You, Stay in Touch, and Remember to contact us when you are free ok... Muacksssss !
I had a bad flu and sore throat, and also lost my sweetie cutie voice... Whenever I stepped in the office, I will make a lot of noise, saying hi to everyone, get everyone to notice me... But today, I walked in very quiet, everyone around looked at me as stranger, is this the Jamie we known... One of the colleagues called me pink panther, because I walk like a pink panther, and I wore pink top and pink skirt... (-_-") ... Today the entire office is damn quiet, heehee everyone miss my voice and laughter, they are not used it... They miss me or miss my voice... Now u all know, how important I am right, without me the office will be very boring and quiet... hahahaaaa
There is one thing that pissed me off today afternoon, my mobile phone kept on ringing non-stop, its so irritating, I actually put it in a slient mode, but I got a pig hp holder that will reflect sound whenever there are calls/messages coming in... irritating, I'm going crazy... Received alot of strange calls from an unknown people.. It is a private call, so I don't know who call me... Whenever I answered that stupid calls, no one is speaking, he/she just call in to listen to my sexy voice... stupid idoit... Is it very funny to listen to my donald duck voice... He/she must have knew that I had lost my voice, use this method to disturb me, right, idoit fool... I had actually called to the M1 customer services for complaint, ask them to help me to check who is the idoit people calling, but they are not able to trace who is the caller... pissed off... If I manage to find who is that idoit myself, I promise I will want that idoit to pay for my bills, and pay me medical compensation becos you had caused me to lose my voice... these calls really really pissed off my day today !
Lucky, I got my colleagues around me to comfort me, they bought me and treated me to my favourite Sakae Sushi restaurant for makan, heehee I am craving for raw fresh salmon fish again, here I comes again... When I came back from my lunch, there is a bottle of herbal drink and pack of sore throat sweets left on my desk, and there is note, hahaa from my boss, wow he is so sweet, I feel so fortunately to have such a wonderful boss...
Why everyone treat me so nice today, I really don't use it lei, I am very touched and blessed... Thanks everyone for your love... Give everyone a kiss on your cheek, catch it.... Muacksssssss !!
Thanks Darren for your forgiveness, thanks for letting me take back my words, back to friends again.. I had been very super stress these few days, studies to me now is like going through the process of death, nothing get into my brain (Garbage In Garbage Out), I still got this feeling that I will fail this term exam, thought of giving up my ACCA. I really wish you can encourage or advice me this, just like last time, but I know u are busy with your work and studies, and I keep on disturbing u, I am really sorry about it, really hope u will forgive me... I swear I never do it intention, I just wish u can motivate me. By the way, my friends had scolded/nagged at me, and I had promised them that I will not give up, I will try to strike for the best.. I know I will... And I know u will also for your studies... Let us fright together ok.. Meanwhile please take care of your health ok, please dun overwork yourself ok... Please dun leave me alone.. I'm sorry Darren.. Friends Forever !!
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I can imagine Derrick is laughing darn loudly to himself now because he always tell me that I am such a sotong, but I had always deny it. On last friday, I had finally come in terms to admit that I am so blur like a sotong. I am a type of people who cannot leave my handphone out of my sight, it must be stick me as closely as possible, if not I will feel insecure...
Let me relate why I came to this conclusion. I was carrying my new bag to work on that day, when I boarded the bus, I ransacked my bag but I could not find my hp. So I reckoned that I must have left it at home, at the moment I had the urge to run home to get it, but the bus journey is half way to airport.
So the whole time at work, i walked around without a mobile phone. Humm.. Normally, I will place my hp on the right side of my desk. Today, beside my ipod, umberalla, water bottle, markup bag, and wallet, its looked so empty. I tried not to feel too handicapped without it. Worried that my colleagues would SMS or call me. Or anyone wants to find me (Though usually nobody does lah. Hahaha...
I happily announced to colleagues that I forgot to bring my hp. Besides walking around without hp, I also walked around without a sense of security as I've relied too much on my hp to tell me what to do. As airport is so huge, so when my hp rings, especially when I set my hp volume to the maximum, I could easily heard it ringing.. I keeping hearing mobile phone ringing all the time, it has the identical ringtone as mine... I was thinking, ha, why is it so coincidental that someone has the same ringtone as me. I am thinking of my hp again, who knows maybe it will be so coincidental that my hp is actually ringing at the same time at home.
After work, went back home straight, becos no mood to go out without my hp with me. When I reach home, I quickly rush to my room to search all the possible place to find my hp (High, low, left, right). Shitty, could not find. Called my hp, at first I can't hear it ringing. But then then then then.... I heard the same ringtone ringing, coming from my bag, I went to look inside my new bag, what, my hp is actually is inside one of the zip pocket..Yipee.... =.=
Ok ok, I know I am super blur can! I actually had my hp with me the whole time I was out of the house without even realising it. Wah lau..... I sotong lor. Ok, maybe I did not search my bag properly in the morning that's why. Normally, when I step out of house, I will always check for 3 things (keys, hp, wallet). But 1st time I experience this kind of incident having my hp with me without realizing it. >_<
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Happy 22nd Birthday to You... Elaine !! Hope u like the presents we bought for you, hope u like the arrangement organized by us... Once again, Happy Birthday.. All the best.. May all your wishes come true.. Stay sweet and pretty always... heehee, still remember my birthday anot?
