Today is 31 July 2006, which is also known as Chinese Valentine Day... I received a stalk of rose from my boss when I arrived from work, he bought red roses for each of the gals in the dept, how sweet is he, too bad he got married, if not i will grab him as my boyfriend so that i dun need to work, stay at home to be tai tai... I had not being celebrating my valentine day for 1 years liao since I last broke off with my ex, feeling very lonely and lost...
Today after work, I will defintely went back home and sleep, dun feel like going out today, becos the street will be packed with couples hugging and kissing... I am very tired of myself, I do fall into lapses where I worry about why I dun have someone to love. Then I start wondering if there is anything wrong with me...
Wish all the couples Happy Chinese Valentine Day! And for myself, hope that I will find someone who can share my life together one day... That is my wish for today valentine day....
Love Story
Chinese Valentine's Day is on the 7th day of the 7th lunar month in the Chinese calendar. A love story for this day is about the 7th daughter of Emperor of Heaven and an orphaned cowherd. The Emperor separated them. The 7th daughter was forced to move to the star Vega and the cowherd moved to the star Altair. Magpies were moved by their true love and many of them gathered and formed a bridge for the couple to meet in the evening of the 7th day of the 7th lunar month, which is the day the Emperor allowed them to meet once a year.
On the Chinese Valentine's Day, people in love like to go to the temple of Matchmaker and pray for their love and the possible marriage. People still single will do the same thing to ask their luck of love in the Matchmaker temple.
The Chinese Valentine's Day is also called The Daughter's Festival. Long ago, Chinese girls always wanted to train themselves having a good handcrafting skill like the Weaving Maid. The skill is essential for their future family. On that night, the unmarried girls may pray for the Weaving Maid star to let them become smarter. When the star Vega is high up in the sky, girls do a test, which is to put a needle on the water surface. If the needle doesn't sink, then girl is already smart enough and ready to find a husband. Girls may ask for any wish, but only one per year.
The Singapore Fireworks Festival 2006, in conjunction with Singapore's 41st National Day celebration, will be held at Marina Bay over a four-day period.
The Shows begin at 9pm ~ 12 to 15 minutes of display and 9,000 rounds of fireworks
Date
5 Aug 06 (Sat) - Team Italy
8 Aug 06 (Tue) - Team Singapore
11 Aug 06 (Fri) - Team New Caledonia
12 Aug 06 (Sat) - Team France **
** A Complimentary Musically Choreographed Fireworks Display by the Team France
Yeah, I am getting more & more interested in taking photos, thanks to Derick whom had taught me on how to take professional photos... He is very good in capture good photos of scenery, people or fireworks... He is good in editing pictures in Photoshop... We went out last week to bring my another oversea friend from HK for 2 day tours, with him around, he is the one who help us to take beautiful photos... 2 days in travelling in Singapore is too short, its need at least 4 days to travel to all the attractions of Singapore... Afterall, Hope she liked my arrangements organised my me... To Derick, you are chosen to be Janice's photographer on her wedding day, hahahahaahaaaaa.
wahaha... so exciting 
Its the time for another photo taking sessions...
Anyone interested to go with me?
About me Time and tide wait for no man. Time will not always be there for u, please take every step wisely. If a man does not know where he is going, no light is bright enough to guide him. You cannot light up the life of others without brightening your own! Regrets are risks we never take. A person who risks nothing, gain nothing, get nothing... is nothing. The rank is what you wear but the respect is what you earn! You can never discover new oceans unless you have the courage to lose sight of the shores!
Just a simple girl who believe that small and little things in life often brings the greatest joys! In a world where I can be anyone! Enjoys sharing people's problems, dreams, visions and goals in lfie. My life goal is simple - fall in love, get married, lead a simple and peaceful life.
View on my dream
Where do I want to get married? On board a cruise in the open sea... Where would like to go for honeymoon? Maldives... Italy Rome (every part of Europe)
I always like to stroll by the beach whenever I am feeling down... Holding hands with someone special, chatting with him under sun... Romantic candlelight dinner by the beach is what I always wanted to have with someone special... Lay down on the beach to see those sparkle shining little stars... Away to a place where there is no works, no traffic, no people around, only me and my someone special alone in a cast away place on a lovely romantic beach... spending our days there... how romantic am I?
I love to travel around to have more explosure, I always wanted to go to Madives because of the beautiful lovely beaches there, the pictures of Madives are really attractive. But after the 2004 X'mas Eve Earthquake plus Tsunami, I dun really know what had happen to that lovely place, is the place still around...
View on Friendship
It's priceless gift that can't be bought or sold. Its value is far greater than a moutain made of gold. If I should ask God for a gift, I am thankful if he send me not diamond, pearls, or riches, but the love and trust of friends! Allocate more times together, and treasure the friendship.
View on Love
I prefer to stay single than rush into a destructive relationship. I have completely given up on love already. Tired of getting hurt and hurting people. I believe in love at first sight. Every step I took since that moment I could walk was a step towards finding love! I will not marry the person who can live with, but marry the person who I cannot live without! It is better to have loved and lost than to never have love before!
I believe love happens gradually - by getting to know and understanding each other more every day. I'm often waiting for love or giving up everything to be with men who aren't love with me. I think love should be mutual. Now, I'm not the type who will wait for things to happen. If the situation requires me to make a move, I will fight for love. I am drawn to men who are responsible, have their own opinion, are big on self-improvement and are charismatic. My ideal man is understanding, gentlemanly and sweet-tempered. I hate man who lie to me....
Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never know! Sadness files away on the wings of time! True love cannot be found where it truly does not exist nor can it be hidden where it truly does! When we remind ourselves we have forgotten someone... have we really forgotten that someone! The day you finally decide to love me will the day, after the day I have given out on holding on! Once a tear fall of my cheek and into the ocean, the day I find it will be the day I stop loving you! If I could be anything I would be your tear, so I could be born in your eyes, live down your cheek and die on your lip! Its hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does! You can close your eyes to things you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to things you don't want to feel!
What is love?
I would like to share the lyrics of a song which I find really touching that melts my heart, which brought tears to my eyes the first time I heard it over the radio one night... This is the song that was played now. In my opinion, lyricists are modern day poets, that is why we all identify with songs, the lyrics speak to us, they say what we feel in ways we are not able to express in our own words.
I dun know why, but I feel this song comes to mind when I am thinking the possibility of a romantic suitation. The words are so beautifully phrased, honest and sincere. The lyrics are simple but yet so touching.. And the lyrics do bring a sort of romantic expression between two lovers, try to convince someone that I were really in love with someone...
The Lyrics
I finally found someone
Who knocks me off my feet
I finally found the one
Who makes me feel complete
It started over coffee
We started off as friends
It's funny how from simple things
The best things begin
This time it's different,
It's all because of you
It's better than it's ever been
Cause we can talk it through
My favorite line was
'Can I call you sometime'
Its all u had to say
To take my breath away
This is it
Oh I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one
to be with every night
Cuz whatever I do
It's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone
Oooh someone
I finally found somone
Did I keep u waiting? (I didnt mind)
I apologize (baby that's fine)
I will wait forever
Just to know you were mine
(Ooh) You know I love your hair
( Sure it looks right?)
I love what you wear
(Isn't it too tight?)
You're exceptional
I can't wait for the rest of my life
This is it
Oh I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one
To be with every night
Cuz whatever I do
It's just got to be you
Ohh my life has just begun
I've finally found someone
And whatever I do
It's just got to be you
Ohh my life has just begun
I've finally found someone...
It may be just me being overly idealistic about finding the right person whom can make me feel really happy just to be around. The best things you can do for another person is not to buy expensive gifts, but just to enjoy the person's company... It's the small things that matter, like communication, commitment, trust, honesty, loyalty and love. I think this song really says just that.
I like the phrase about "I finally found someone, Someone to share my life, I finally found the one to be with every night" only to promise that he will love her. For all of you who have a partner in your life, you should count yourself lucky to be able to love, its never always easy, but I'd like to believe that its really worthwhile. There is not much point in being really successful but not have anyone to share your happiness with. An empty house is never a home.
As for me, I know I'm quite nitpicker... I think friendship should be the basis of any long-term relationship. I've seen couples jump into a serious relationsip before even getting to know each other on a platonic level - that is just not what I want.
Its always better to be single, I have more freedom, more time for girlie activities with friends and more time for myself... but I do fall into lapses where I worry about why I dun have someone to love. Then I start wondering if there is anything wrong with me... Really Lost !
I believe in destiny and I believe that I'll meet the right guy someday. Indeed it is a great fortune to have found that special someone who can share my life together. And I am certain I will find that special person someday and when it happens, I will love him with all my hearts... I think my ideal man will sweep me off my feet and give me all his loves and entrust....
Congratulations to Ivan and Janice... 09/09/06 is your big day.
Thanks for choosing me to be your bridesmaid. I had being bridesmaid for more than 3 times liao, will this means that I will have difficulty getting married... Am I that superstition. Last friday, we were at the bridal shop trying on the wedding gown, but for mine need to be tailored because it is too big for me. Today, we went back again to get my dress, tried it again, its really suit me well, very lovely and gorgeous, feeling like getting marry soon... When will my day comes....
Janice and I, known each other when we are born, both family are good friends, as our father are business-mates... We played and grown up together, just like sisters... Still remember the promise we made when we were young, to marry and say your vows on the same day. And we also promised each other that, if anyone get married, the other one will be the bridesmaid. Now it is your turn, I will be your bridesmaid...
So coincidence is that the guy she is married to is my ex-bf, I was the one who match-make them together. So strange. But I feel happy to see them together. This is fate.... Janice and Ivan, Wish u all the best ok. Ivan please promise me to look after her ok.
Frankly speaking, I dun really like the guy (Vincent) you all chosen for my partner on that day, he is quite flirt, sorry for my straightforward... He send me home last friday after dinner, he tried to kiss me but I reject his offer. I dun care whether he is handsome or rich, yes indeed he is, but what is he trying to do... we just met... I am not that loose lor... Sorry I dun really liked him, but I promise to continue to be his partner on the wedding day... Dun have to worry ok...
16 July 2006 (Sunday), is not my mother's birthday, actually is my parent Anniversary. Unfortunately my father is not around with us. Actually I will like to bring my mother to restaurant for dinner, but it dun seen to be sincere at all, therefore my brother and I decided to come out a plan to cook a romantic dinner for her. As she was not around at home, she went to her friend' house for weekly meeting. My brother and I went to the supermarket to buy ingredients, candles and also a bouquet of flowers.
Lucky, I got a brother who love to cook, I did all the cutting, he did the cooking, but I am the one who guide him on how to cook and what ingredients to put. We cooked 4 dishes and 1 soup, all of these are my mother's favourite food, this spent us about 1 half hour to finish cooking. Yummy the food is fanasantic. Arranging the dinning table with sparkling pental of red roses and lighted up the candles ready for my mother to come back home. Around 8.00pm, the door bell rang, my brother dressed up to pretend to be my father, brought the bouquet of flower and stood behind the door, as the door opened, he handed the bouquet of flowers to her and we said Happy Anniversary Mummy!!
As she stepped in the dinning room, she is very happy and shocked, and started to cry, maybe she is touched. Turned off the lights and on the music, as if we are having a romantic dinner in one of the restaurant...
Mummy... Hope u like our arrangement, brother and me will always be on your side to love you forever. Its so hard for me to express to her I LOVE U in front of her, usually what I did is to send her email, for the very first time in this year, I express my feelings to her. She was so touched and hug me and cried... This is the most memorable and happy moments we had encountered, also taken alot of beautiful pictures...
LOve you, mummy... Mmmmmuuuacks~!!
I am very very tired of myself, last friday i decided to put an end to my story. It all started off from a message, so i decided ended off by sending him the final last message to him, farewell greeting to him, wishing him "All the best". And also chatting with him for the last moments in MSN.
BUT... I should logoff immediately after typing the farewell message. Why did he reply my message? My heart aches again. To end or to continue...
As more and more messages coming in, my heart melt each time I saw the messages. What should i do next? His encouragement, sweetly messages always wanted me to proceed further. I think u are right, we should take some times to know each other better before coming to a conclusion. Naturally and slowly. I will allocate more time in our friendship. But I very very scare to face you personally when we meet out one day, feeling very awkward and ashamed of myself, making a fool of myself. Scared that I will cry when I see you. What is lovely mean to you? Attractive or Beautiful.... I am not lovely at all, I am very scary and weird, and little miss prefect type of gal. Thanks for your comments that I had a nice pair of legs, yes indeed I had a nice pair of legs but I still feel I am fat... Please dun stop me from going on diet ok...
Feeling very happy that he still remember my blog url link, I always thought that he had forgot it... To my friends who had cried after reading my blog, I'm very sorry, maybe I am too emotional. It had been some times not loggin to my blog, there are alot of things and feelings to share with everyone. There are alot of ups and downs stories to share. More to comes....
Let u all know more about me...
I am a person who is willing to share.
Any friends that came along, I will accept and trust them completely.
What I want in my life is half-fullfilled.
I am weak in my life and tends to be fragile.
I have high sex drive.
I have a few good friends in my lfie.
My last relationship is good and its still fresh in my heart.
Even when my partner is around me, I will flirt around with orthers.
I have extreme low ego.
A humble personality is in me.
I get average bond with my friends.
My partner is pure and good in my heart.
My partner is a very homely and humble person.
I will seek my partner whenever I have met with problems.
Yeah... the result of the "Test of my Personality" is almost true about me.... I had very extreme low ego, and like to seek to someone whenever I met with problems... that is true.
Wilfred Bon Voyage... Thanks for coming to your place on monday night to greet me good bye and thanks for the bouquet of flowers. U have remember my favourite flower but my favourite colour is not red... After all, I am still happy. On that day when I received your call, I am quite angry at first, but I still came down to see you. It had been a month not seeing you liao, you have changed alot, u get old, maybe u never groom on that day.
After all, thanks for the 3 years u had being with me. From 14/2/02 till 14/2/05, this 3 years of relationship, you must have being a horrible experience right, dating a miss little prefect girl and had to control my hot temper.... We had alot of sweet and sour memory, but there is more sweet memory than sour memory. Thanks for pampering me by giving me alot of precious gifts and happiness, thanks for treating me as a princess.... If I had not went to your place on 14/2/05, maybe we are still together, but too bad, I was there and I had seen it totally, we had finally ended our path there.... But within this year in between, we had patched before and ended again... maybe it is just a bit and pieces of a relationship...
By the way, I am quite delighted to heard that you had being posted to China for overseas assignment for 3 years. You always wanted to go out to explore more, now it is good opportunity to enchance your capabilities. 3 years there can be long also, please take care of yourself, you know better of yourself that your health is not good, drink more water ok...
The guy that I had mentioned to you on that day, is just a dream, i am still in my dreamland looking for a prince to release me. Indeed I finally someone special, but it does not belong to me... I am not that lucky... Maybe it is not the time to get into relationship now after the big blow you had bought to me... It is not the time to cling on him, it not fair for him.
Dun have to worry about me, I will be fine. I feel like there is something is missing in me, Its so empty... but I must stay strong now, times will come to heal my wound.
I am so happy that we are still friends, rather than enemy. We are now able to express and talk freely through, no more quarrel anymore... Email me whenever you need a friend ok, and I will email my thoughts to you too... By the way, I forget to greet you a Happy Belated Birthday. My birthday is coming soon, just few months away from now, remember to send me presents ok, dun have to be big expensive one, just a simple postcard with your greeting, I will be happy.
Wilfred... Thanks for everthings you done to me. Bon Voyage... Friends Forever... Take care ok.
"Love - one little word, a huge swirling emotion. Love is such a powerful feeling that it can be frightening. But never forget that love is a precious gift - go on and dare to fall in love. Sometimes all you need is a bit of courage to make the first move. Love is constant, alive and lasts through the years."
"Happiness is found in the simpliest and most overlooked of things, like holding a loved one's hands and looking at the sky or stars."
I thought about it all night. Maybe it is not the right time to get into a relationship at this time. Actually I... How should I put it? I admit I have feeling for you, but ex-bf issue has dealt me a great blow. Whenever I see him, my heart still aches. I dont want to cling onto you... like a life buoy at this time.
But there are something... I dont understand. But i hope that you know that i am serious about you... I dun want to be just remain as pals. Why must you lie to yourself? I realise that I'm really fond of you. Do you have the feelings for me too. You may not be fond of me now, but you cant stop me from liking you. Through the future is unpredictable, my feeling for you are true. Give me a chance....
Hi gals, it had been so long not seeing each others liao... Its so hard to call everyone out. Finally after so many years, we are out again.
What a lucky number 080706... So happy today evening to see u all again... Flora, Margaret and Velary, u all had missed the fun... Too bad. Let arrange another outing again, How izzit... Hope that my arrangement today is fun and memorise... Pictures mean a thousand words... I better dun say too much, let see the pictures...
Me, Fidelia, Shuyan, Yaping, Doreen, Janice and her daughter.
She is so cute...
I am quite tired of myself. I have really lost control in myself. My heart has overule my mind at times.. Heart is Blind.. I am tired of not being able to be myself ... I know i am very emotionally unstable ... well ... i am a sore loser in relationship ... what to do ...
i've fallen really low this time.
i've lost so much.
friends, myself and a love.
i abused the love and trust given to me.
hell, i'm not going to run away anymore.
i'm going to fight for everything worth fighting for.
it's time i made a stand within myself.
it's time i've woken up and learn to really trust again.
it's time i learnt how to change for the better instead of being bitter and thinking it's other people and never me.
i'm not gonna believe in fate.
and even if i lose,
i'm going to make sure it'll be after i've given my all.
and find the courage and wisdom to accept it,
pick up the pieces and move on.
a big thank to my family,
all past and present friends.
they're make me realise that i was never ever ever really alone.
I was once a fat ugly ducking before, but after months dieting, cutting down on my food intakes, I finally achieve what I am aiming for. Now i am weighting at 53kg, but I aim for this year birthday wish is 50kg.
I had met out with my ex-secondary classmates for supper on Sunday night. I was feeling very down in the morning till afternoon, I couldnt find a friend out to chat with, most of my guys friends are busy sleeping like a pig, and my girlfriends are busy dating with their boy boy. I was left alone by myself. I cycle down to east coast alone, to the usual place where is the most beautiful handout to see areoplanes landing and departing. I even scream my doubts to the sea, hope that they can understand and reply me back. Maybe listening to the sea waves is their reply to me. When i was about to contact my friends, my stupid handphone is low bat. So simply sit under a coconut tree to think about the past and present. I even wrote some poems out of it. Everyone who are close with me will defintely know where i will go when i was feeling down.
One of my friends, manage to to find me there, maybe he had saw my message, and he came down to look for me. I am so touched by him, and he even fetch me home. We also managed to contact the rest of the guys and gals to meet out for dinner and supper at siglap ~ Hongkong cafe. It was fun and memorise gathering, it had been a long time not meeting them liao, they are busy watching world cup. Lucky sunday night, there is no game. Most of them had lose money and some had won some money. Whatever, I am really very happy.
I was so happy on that day, looking back from where we start to know each other till now, it had been more than 10 years liao. Everybody do change. But my changes is the biggest among everyone. I was once a ugly ducking and now a swam (not that pretty la), and I had slim down alot, 15kg difference from before.
Chatting with them is fun, they make me laugh. But they are not the person who are able to share problems with. I am happpy but I am still feeling down inside. I really need help.
I used to write journal in my blog, but now i stop writing it liao. It had been half a year not loggin to my blog to write. Writing journal can help me to improve my english.
In the process of our normal routine, chatting with him through msn.. I am so boring just now, he is busying doing this stuff, i so better dun disturb him further. Therefore I decide to write him a poem for him to see... Let him see how good my writing skill will be.
Poems
So how can I tell you just how much you mean to me?
I try my best to write it all down,
but there's just so much to say
and not any words to really describe what I feel.
I so overwhelmed and thankful to find someone like you;
someone who has stuck with me, even in the worst of times;
someone who has always shown me the love and respect I need.
You always make me feel loved.
You restore my confidence in times of worry and doubt.
You show me the way that is right.
You put a new profound faith in me I didn't know I had.
You always seem to know what to say,
even if you don't say anything at all.
When I need someone's advice, your mouth is there
to tell me how I can make everything better.
When I just need someone to listen after a hard day,
your ears are there to listen attentively.
You are always there for me.
I write this on tear-streaked paper
because I so happy.
You mean so much to me.
You are the kind of person
that only comes around once in a lifetime.
I want to tell you
just how much you mean to me.
I want to thank you
for being there for me,
for comforting me,
for never doubting me,
for showing me you care.
written by: Jamie
How izzit... Are u touched by the poem? Do u believe in fate? Hope u like it.
I just knew a friend from friendster. He looks like a friend who i knew before, he was my senior in secondary sch and top of it he is first lover. I am not taking him as his subsitute.
He is the only friend that I met out from friendster. I got this weird feeling is that online friends are not trustworthy and insecured. But sending messages to him in friendster and chatting with him through msn. I got this feeling that he is a nice guy, Especially in the days when I was busy preparing for my coming exams last month, he was always there for me through the period of time, giving me advices, listening to my doubts.
So after my exams were over, i decided to call him out. One week after my exam, we actually went out for a movie ~ "Just my Luck" in Marina Square. After the movie, we went to the esplanade Makansutra Gluttons Bay for dinner, Singapore's best street food, under the moonlight by the bay.
After the dinner, we went for a stroll down from Esplanade to Fullerton One. We stop at the Merlion for a quick chat, and later proceed to Bakerz Inn for a drink.
It had been a nice beautiful day knowing him. Thanks for being there for me through the days when I was feeling down.